back garden

How you do anything is how you do everything

I never could connect with the concept of "mindfulness" even though I feel like it should be something that speaks to me. It feels very passive (even though objectively that's not the definition). It makes me feel like things are just happening around me, and "being aware" will somehow make me.... be better? I know this is the opposite of the meaning, but mindfulness feels very passive. It has its place in meditation, but "practicing mindfulness" just has an instagram info-graphic lameness attached to it.

Instead Intention has much more meaning for me. It feels actionable, and alive. I feel like I really started living intentionally when I started HRT. It felt like oh yeah, I can do what I want?? Living with intention feels like breaking the rules. I finally realized that trying to min/max my life is fucking stupid. Especially when going out of your way to do something enriches your life. I really like how the Convivial Society writes about this.

As always, I encourage you to ask the seemingly stupid question: Why should I be productive? Why should I do something faster? Why is efficiency good?